Okay, I have to admit that I've really been blue today, and I don't mean that Annie Sloan "pretty blue" either. I mean a real feel sorry for me, down in the dumps, just want to cry kinda day. A real "ugly blue" kinda day. I'm sure those of you who know me are wondering what the heck is going on 'cause I don't normally "allow" myself to feel this way. I have no reason to feel sorry for myself, I have a wonderful husband, a beautiful, caring son who is a tremendous blessing to me, a beautiful home (and I'm not talking about what it looks like, although I do think its pretty), I'm healthy and so is my family and those close to me. I know I have several people who love and care about me, so what reason do I have to be "ugly blue?" Well, I did it to myself. First, I got my feelings hurt by something somone else did. Then, I made the huge mistake of comparing myself to others. While taking a little break I was scoping out FB on my Flower Child Design page and saw a new page that looked interesting. So I hop on over there and check out all this cool furniture. Luvin' what I see so I hop on over to her blog. That's when I did it. I noticed that she's a new blogger like me, but unlike me she has like a gazillion followers. I have two very loyal followers. She's been featured on like a trillion blogs. I've only been featured on one. She has like thousands of fans on FB, I can't keep the ones I have much less build it up. So after I get myself in a good snit I make myself get up and get back to work. The whole time I'm working I'm questioning why I'm wasting my time. No one (no offense Lucy and Marni) is following my blog and no one's really buying my stuff. They order it then they don't come pick it up. As I sit out in my "work shop" with an abundance of very pretty ribbon (that normally makes me smile) that I have spent a small fortune on, I question God. Why did He give me this gift if I'm not supposed to use it! I've put my trust and my faith in Him and He is letting me down! Oh yeah, I'm in a real snit alright. I have no friends or at least none that invite me to do anything, no one likes my stuff, no one follows my blog, I can't get my fan base up on my FB page, no one ever comments on my FB page, I can't get other business page owners to share or like my page even though I share and like theirs. I'm working like 14 hour days everyday, I'm covered in paint, sweat and sawdust and I smell to high heaven. Yep, God is really letting me down. Yep, a VERY "ugly blue" kinda day. And then my phone beeped to let me know someone had tagged me in photo on FB. When I looked this is what I saw:
Remember that trunk I painted for Baby Maddox? Well his mamma used it in his first official portrait. Wow!! how special is that? something I created was used for something so special. Guess that teaches me to question God.
So I'm gonna put on my big girl panties, put a smile on my face and get back to work! Life is too short and too precious to wallow in self-pity. Each day is a blessing from God and I don't intend to waste any more of this one with a frown on my face. So will anyone read this besides my two loyal followers? Who knows, doesn't matter 'cause I'm over feeling sorry for myself. If I never get more than two followers on this blog, well that's okay with me as long as they are happy with what they see. Same goes for my FB page. As long as the people who are following it are happy with what they see then that's all that matters to me. My goal is to put a smile on your face. When I quit my job to pursue this I wasn't nervous at all because I had faith! Whenever I question that decision God usually puts me back on track, I just have to listen. Sometimes He really has to yank my chain, but He's always there for me, and this knowledge makes me: